This broke me in the best possible way and I can't. Words. ;___;
I loved absolutely everything about the second to last episode, aside from that one thing, but here you take it and you give these five scenarios that are so heartbreaking but amazing to read, too. Because I could easily see this happening, I could easily feel the emptiness again, how--despite this being safer for him...or so one would think, it's not real.
I think that's something else I have issues with about compulsion being used on him again. There's so much conflict and growth for him in this episode. We see him take charge like he never has before. We see how naturally it comes to him. We see his reaction to killing that hybrid--and the natural progression of all of these things could be amazing if he's allowed to deal with him, but with compulsion it's taken away.
Aside from, you know, every other reason it's wrong.
Each and every scenario got to me for different reasons, and then this line:
"That's what life's about," he says instead of any of the rest. It's a series of non-choices.
broke me a little more, too.
Just. ;_; /HUGS HIM FOREVER AND WHYYYY, SHOW, WHY
Poor Jeremy. He's been through so much and terrible things have happened to him not once, but consecutively, and compulsion being added to that pile is just horrible. His life. Their lives. :(
I have no idea where the show is going with it but I really hope there's aftermath/fallout from it and reading this amazing fic reminded me of all the reasons why. I absolutely loved the last one, too, and it's so easy to feel and to get where he's coming from, why he needs and should make those decisions for himself. I think about how he'd be down the line, after all of this, if he gets to make his own choices, and it's someone truly, truly amazing, if not darkened and breaky.
You just can't keep a Gilbert down for good, ok.
AND WELL, he is already amazing and I never see it more clearly than when you're writing him.
Oh, Gilbert!bbs. ;; You're my favorite.
And you are my favorite, thank you so much for writing this for me.
I loved reading it more than I can say. You always write me the best things. ;___;
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This broke me in the best possible way and I can't. Words. ;___;
I loved absolutely everything about the second to last episode, aside from that one thing, but here you take it and you give these five scenarios that are so heartbreaking but amazing to read, too. Because I could easily see this happening, I could easily feel the emptiness again, how--despite this being safer for him...or so one would think, it's not real.
I think that's something else I have issues with about compulsion being used on him again. There's so much conflict and growth for him in this episode. We see him take charge like he never has before. We see how naturally it comes to him. We see his reaction to killing that hybrid--and the natural progression of all of these things could be amazing if he's allowed to deal with him, but with compulsion it's taken away.
Aside from, you know, every other reason it's wrong.
Each and every scenario got to me for different reasons, and then this line:
"That's what life's about," he says instead of any of the rest. It's a series of non-choices.
broke me a little more, too.
Just. ;_; /HUGS HIM FOREVER AND WHYYYY, SHOW, WHY
Poor Jeremy. He's been through so much and terrible things have happened to him not once, but consecutively, and compulsion being added to that pile is just horrible. His life. Their lives. :(
I have no idea where the show is going with it but I really hope there's aftermath/fallout from it and reading this amazing fic reminded me of all the reasons why. I absolutely loved the last one, too, and it's so easy to feel and to get where he's coming from, why he needs and should make those decisions for himself. I think about how he'd be down the line, after all of this, if he gets to make his own choices, and it's someone truly, truly amazing, if not darkened and breaky.
You just can't keep a Gilbert down for good, ok.
AND WELL, he is already amazing and I never see it more clearly than when you're writing him.
Oh, Gilbert!bbs. ;; You're my favorite.
And you are my favorite, thank you so much for writing this for me.
I loved reading it more than I can say. You always write me the best things. ;___;