[It doesn’t stop Jeremy from wanting to help even if he would understand the reasoning behind trying to keep him from it.
Jeremy would be more than happy being there with her every time that she needed it, every time that she was similar to what he was when she wandered the street. He would want to be there with her to remind her of Sarah, to hold her while he slept as if that would keep her in place, as if that would keep her with him.
He would want to do that for her.
He would want it more than he can really express, but if he were in her position, he’d likely do the very same.
Jeremy would avoid people when he was in that state, but he would want to stay with her, he would want to reach out to her. He wouldn’t want her to protect him from herself.
But he understands the need, the desire, the want for it.]
I hope we can too. I mean I’d like to avoid it if at all possible, but there’s… I think that they happen if you build up a lot of memories like that. It might be unavoidable, I don’t know. [He shakes his head, looking over at her, noting the surprise on her face. He smiles back at her.] Oh, okay. If you get any ideas, you should let me know. I appreciate your opinion.
[And he knows that she would. There aren’t secrets between them, and there never will be. He trusts her, and she trusts him too. They’re best friends first, and they always look out for each other first, which makes all the difference. He’s never had a relationship like this one before. Vicki was barely a relationship based on sex and drugs. Anna started out being about betrayal and using each other. Bonnie, he was the kid brother who suddenly got hot to her.]
I… don’t know if that really helps? [And he laughs a little, tilting his head as he look at her.] I don’t like when you’re angry either especially cause of me. There’s enough to be angry at, but I know… why you would be.
It makes me angry too.
[All of it. There’s so much to be pissed about, and the list is endless. He used to be so angry, all the time. He could feel empty and angry at the same time, and it wouldn’t really seem to end, because he found one thing after another to hate, to be angry about.
He still gets pissed sometimes. Ahem, if his fight with Carter says anything, he gets more than pissed sometimes, at the unfairness of it all, but he’s still here.]
…yeah, it really is scary. It’s life, I guess, but I hate that so much of someone can change because of what’s going on around them. I’ve heard people say that before about Chicago, how it changes you. [You live long enough in Chicago to die or to become insane. It’s really scary to think about, but he can’t hep thinking about it.
No one can really.]
Did you? That kind of sounds like it could be fun, actually fun.
[The expression on her face has him smiling back at her. He ducks his head for a moment before he meets her gaze again, fond smile on his face.
Jeremy looks at her. His hand rests against her stomach as she lies down against the back of the bed. He knows what it’s like to not have his parents, it’s true, but he is grateful that he got to know them both and they got to know him too and show how much they loved him all the time. It’s something Sarah never got, and he knows that’s something he couldn’t understand.
He’s quiet as he waits for her to respond, and he closes his eyes at what she ays. It doesn’t sound teenager to him, not for a moment. Jeremy shifts until he’s lying beside her but over her so he’s looking down at her while she looks up..] …it shouldn’t have been. If he knew you, if he was any kind of father, it couldn’t have been. You are amazing.
jrkle;aljr LMFAO he won't stop .-.
Jeremy would be more than happy being there with her every time that she needed it, every time that she was similar to what he was when she wandered the street. He would want to be there with her to remind her of Sarah, to hold her while he slept as if that would keep her in place, as if that would keep her with him.
He would want to do that for her.
He would want it more than he can really express, but if he were in her position, he’d likely do the very same.
Jeremy would avoid people when he was in that state, but he would want to stay with her, he would want to reach out to her. He wouldn’t want her to protect him from herself.
But he understands the need, the desire, the want for it.]
I hope we can too. I mean I’d like to avoid it if at all possible, but there’s… I think that they happen if you build up a lot of memories like that. It might be unavoidable, I don’t know. [He shakes his head, looking over at her, noting the surprise on her face. He smiles back at her.] Oh, okay. If you get any ideas, you should let me know. I appreciate your opinion.
[And he knows that she would. There aren’t secrets between them, and there never will be. He trusts her, and she trusts him too. They’re best friends first, and they always look out for each other first, which makes all the difference. He’s never had a relationship like this one before. Vicki was barely a relationship based on sex and drugs. Anna started out being about betrayal and using each other. Bonnie, he was the kid brother who suddenly got hot to her.]
I… don’t know if that really helps? [And he laughs a little, tilting his head as he look at her.] I don’t like when you’re angry either especially cause of me. There’s enough to be angry at, but I know… why you would be.
It makes me angry too.
[All of it. There’s so much to be pissed about, and the list is endless. He used to be so angry, all the time. He could feel empty and angry at the same time, and it wouldn’t really seem to end, because he found one thing after another to hate, to be angry about.
He still gets pissed sometimes. Ahem, if his fight with Carter says anything, he gets more than pissed sometimes, at the unfairness of it all, but he’s still here.]
…yeah, it really is scary. It’s life, I guess, but I hate that so much of someone can change because of what’s going on around them. I’ve heard people say that before about Chicago, how it changes you. [You live long enough in Chicago to die or to become insane. It’s really scary to think about, but he can’t hep thinking about it.
No one can really.]
Did you? That kind of sounds like it could be fun, actually fun.
[The expression on her face has him smiling back at her. He ducks his head for a moment before he meets her gaze again, fond smile on his face.
Jeremy looks at her. His hand rests against her stomach as she lies down against the back of the bed. He knows what it’s like to not have his parents, it’s true, but he is grateful that he got to know them both and they got to know him too and show how much they loved him all the time. It’s something Sarah never got, and he knows that’s something he couldn’t understand.
He’s quiet as he waits for her to respond, and he closes his eyes at what she ays. It doesn’t sound teenager to him, not for a moment. Jeremy shifts until he’s lying beside her but over her so he’s looking down at her while she looks up..] …it shouldn’t have been. If he knew you, if he was any kind of father, it couldn’t have been. You are amazing.