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[misfitted]

I know a lot about death, but it's not just because of how many people I loved that died before I came here.

It's also because I died. Twice.

And sometimes it's felt weird that I'm still here.

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[misfitted]

I know. I'd tell you if it got worse.

Elena, it's fine. You were there. An Elena was there, and I wouldn't want you to have gone through that.

[descendent.livejournal.com]

Okay. I'd want you to come to me if it did, or if something ever felt off. Anything at all. We still haven't found out how the Rift changed you, so there's that, too.

I'll keep reminding myself she was. [Weird as it is to think of another Elena. If he was going through something, she should have gone through it with him. She's never not going to feel that way.]

[misfitted]

Yeah, that's right. Do you think it could be related to that instead of what happened?

I know it's still weird for you. Just

I can't help being happy that you never had to. [but he knows he'd feel weird if the positions were reversed.] Sometimes it feels weird that you were here alone for so long, and you lived stuff that I didn't here too.

[descendent.livejournal.com]

I honestly don't know. You fell through so soon after you were brought back, it's possible both things could be related to each other. You can't really rule anything out with the Rifts.

Jeremy, what matters is you're alive and you're okay.

The rest we'll deal with and figure it out. I promise. [It's very weird, but she knows she can't do anythin about it.] The important thing is I'm not anymore. You're here, Damon and Caroline are here, and we've found our place.

[misfitted]

Yeah, that's true. I don't really know which it is either.

But that's what matters. I am alive, and I'm fine.

You're right. I know we will. I wouldn't have even written about this if the Rift hadn't made me. [Baw, Elena. rjle;a ;;] We did. I like it here. A lot.

[descendent.livejournal.com]

We may just have to give it time.

It's not easy, but we can also ask around, as long as we're careful about who we ask.

It's still good to know, Jer. I wouldn't want you feeling this way forever. [And then a pause, almost as if coming to a realization.] I think I like it, too.

[misfitted]

I don't think I will. I don't know. Martha wrote me too, and she said she'll help how ever she can.

And it's helped talking to other people who've died that replied. Just yeah.

Hey, good. I want you to like this place too. It's home now. You've been able to have fun here. :)

[descendent.livejournal.com]

She did? That's good. She has a lot of experience with this. I'll talk to her, too.

I don't know what you're going through, but I'm still here if you ever want to talk more about it.

I do like it. It grew on me. Just took its time, that's all. :)

[misfitted]

Yeah, she did. She said she's had experience with it too.

Thanks. I know you are. I promise it's okay for the most part other than the weird feeling sometimes.

Think that's Chicago's thing. Growing on you.

[descendent.livejournal.com]

That doesn't surprise me. [And it hurts to know why Martha would understand it, too. So many of them have been through so much.]

I'm going to worry regardless and I'm going to be there checking in on you. You got it? [:|]

It's one of its many things, I think.